Just me again. I’ve decided I must drink more water each day, maybe then I won’t look like a walking dead. Had to take the Surface to Best Buy and wanted to take my water with me as well, so I took my insulated thermos from the shelf, then realized you were the last to have ever used it since probably the beginning of December 2024. I rinsed out the body of the thermos well, but when it came to the top portion, the section you drink from, it struck me that it was almost like sharing a kiss. You have to remember I’m a guy who would give almost anything to just hold you one more time.

I remember, back in October ’24, you wanted to be held at that time. You’d been confined to the bed, couch or recliner for weeks. You did manage to stand on your own, with a little help from me and it felt so good to have you close to me but then you stated I was holding you a little to tight; I was just trying to be on the safe side so you would not lose your balance. You then said you had to sit down; you were so weak and fragile at that time. I believe that was the last time you tried to stand even with the assistance of your walker. I pray that I could experience that moment just one more time, but that will have to wait.

I continue to thank God for each day that’s given to me, but, to be honest, getting to 5pm each day is an ordeal. Not to sound unthankful but, truth be known, I’m packed and ready to go whenever He calls. I loved the life we had together, but that’s not the life I have without you.

In the meantime, I’m going to assume that Paradise has Internet, and you have the ability to check in on me from time to time, when your really bored.

Talk to you later.

Me