Not one of my best days, 5.25.25 

Taken 12-19-19

I have complained to the powers that be that I’ve gone from sorrow to depression. Depression, not so severe anyone should be concerned about, just a really lousy mood. It’s for sure it does have to do with the date. This day is known as a monthiversary. The same as an anniversary just 1/12th. as big. It was today, 5-months ago (12/25/24) that I spoke to Carla for the very last time. Actually I really did not really get a chance to say very much. I got the impression that she was given a specific amount of time and then was told to close with

“I MUST CLOSE MY EYES NOW” as her last words. I was certain with the clarity she had in her voice we’d have a chance to speak on several more occasions, not to be the case. I’ve tried to recall the exact time we spoke but the best I could do was to narrow in down to sometime between 1-3pm. My next dreadful monthiversary will fall on 6.1.25, hopefully, emotionally, I’ll be in a better mood later today.