NEW YEARS DAY 01-01-2025

One New Years Day, 7-days after her closing her eye, I awoke about 6:30 to prepare her next round of medications for 7am. She was still gasping for air, I felt so unbelievably inadequate that there was nothing I could do to relieve her congestion. Within a minute or two she began stirring just a bit and breathing even harder, so I went to her to see if there might be anything I could do to help her. Then as I was holding her-then she just stopped breathing. I began praying, I have never felt so much anxiety. Holding and praying were my only options. The anxiety, guilt, and depression over what was happening was incomprehensible. I have never experienced so much anxiety and emotion in my whole life.